It’s okay to have shitty vision.

I’m the bespectacled girl with a flawed vision. My friends once called me a blind bat. Well, I’m glad cause spectacles give me superhero powers. The whoops tho… I squinted my way through pre-school, but now with my glasses, I know the answers to everything! The best feeling ever is automatically getting the smartest-person-in-the-room status always, but if you wanna see craze, make the mistake of saying the word “nerd” to my face. Having to reach for your glasses the minute you wake up cause jeez, I can’t see without my glasses! can be annoying sometimes. Friends will always ask, “can I try on your miniature eyes?” and then the “can you see me from here?” question. Dear friends, I can’t. Colors appeal to me, but your faces are like feature-less blobs. My prescribed glasses are my prized possession, cause why not? Days without my glasses had my brothers frustrated. “Pass me that book” … “I can’t see shit, brother ” … “Girl, are you blind?” … ” Fr, you’re just knowing?” But with my spec on, I’m all good.

The great unknown where feet may fail. One of my all-time favorite songs is Hillsong United’s “Oceans”. Whenever I remember the lyrics, the words of Dan Millman come to mind, “Faith means living with uncertainty- feeling your way through life, letting your heart guide you like a lantern in the dark.” The bottom line is that you do not need certainly to take the next step. Not knowing is not an obstacle. When you take the next step, another step will become clear. So focus on taking one step at a time.

“You do not need certainty in order to take the next step. Not knowing is not an obstacle.” The paradox though is that, we need both certainty and uncertainty.

Hagne’s rays. I’m busy exploring life through God’s lens. The vision may be shitty sometimes, but swrs, the experience is worth having. Proverbs 3:5-7 better sum up God’s desire to be involved in even the smallest details of our lives. To acknowledge Him is to care what He thinks and to ask for His opinion. In other words, don’t even think that you can do a thing or run your life without God’s help and direction. Trying to do so will only result in having the arms of flesh fail one.

Let Him lead. It makes a difference when you have God leading you. It takes off a whole lot of pressure. His direction may seem illogical, but you don’t have to be afraid cause His plans are the best. In Psalm 37:23, the Bible tells us that our steps are ordered by the Lord, and we can trust Him not to let us lose our ways. Life, I’m learning, can change in a flash, so let go and let God.

It’s okay to have a shitty vision. A prize with spelled-out criteria, in most cases, doesn’t appeal to people. God’s ways are not our ways, and neither are His thoughts our thoughts. Trust God, even when it doesn’t make sense. He is mindful of you and He won’t leave you nor forsake you. Remember how things finally worked out for Abraham even though he had an unclear vision of his future? While we pray for clarity, sometimes uncertainties are inescapable in this journey. Trust Him all the way and that flawed vision of yours now will eventually leave you speechless.

I am Oluwaferanmi,

And You are loved by God.❤️